Singer Ed Sheeran says that he spiraled into depression last year after his wife (Cherry) was diagnosed with a tumor while pregnant.
Also, the sudden demise of his best friend Jimal Edward affected him so much.
"My pregnant wife got told she had a tumor, with no route to treatment until after the birth. My best friend Jamal, a brother to me, died suddenly, and I found myself standing in court defending my integrity and career as a songwriter.
I was spiraling through fear, depression, and anxiety.
"I felt like I was drowning, head below the surface, looking up but not being able to break through for air,'' the singer wrote
At the time, the singer was in court every day facing a copyright trial.
" The impact of those events changed my mental health, and ultimately the way I viewed music"
"As an artist, I didn’t feel like I could credibly put a body of work into the world that didn’t accurately represent where I am and how I need to express myself at this point in my life". The star added.
The singer expressed how he had a series of negative thoughts, feelings, and actions that fed themselves repeatedly causing everything to be progressively worse "I felt like I was drowning, head below the surface, looking up but not being able to break through for air." He continued.
As a result, the singer scrapped hundreds of the songs he had written for his upcoming album.
To get through these experiences, Ed Sheeran used songwriting to make sense of his feelings.
"Writing songs is my therapy. It helps me make sense of my feelings. I wrote without thought of what the songs would be, I just wrote whatever tumbled out. And in just over a week I replaced a decade’s worth of work with my deepest darkest thoughts.
"This album is purely that. It’s opening the trapdoor into my soul.
"For the first time, I’m not trying to craft an album people will like, I’m merely putting something out that’s honest and true to where I am in my adult life. This is last February’s diary entry and my way of making sense of it. This is Subtract." He finalized.