For the first time, Nicki Minaj has opened up about receiving the bad news of her father's death that happened in February 12.

"Tho I can't really bring myself to discuss the passing of my father as yet; I can say it has been the most devastating loss of my life." She wrote


"I find myself wanting to call him all the time. More so now that he's gone. Life is funny that way. May his soul rest in paradise. He was very loved & will be very missed"

Her father, Robert Maraj died in a hit and ran at an intersection in Mineola, N.Y.

After the driven fled, Robert was taken to the hospital but died the following day.

The driver of the Volvo station wagon, Charles Polevich, pleaded not guilty after being tracked down by police.